You may be wondering, "Hey, where's the Bible Study today?" Don't worry, it will be here on Wednesday. Sorry for the delay. I suspect that God wanted to derail me from my pattern today. Thirty minutes into my study time, I realized I'd forgotten to work on Galatians today.
Lately, as I may have mentioned here before, I've been wrestling with God's silence. I spend time in his word 5-6 days in the week, but I'm going through a season where it feels a little too familiar. Some of you may know what I mean.
The problem isn't that I've "learned all there is to learn". Just typing those words feels stupid. But I do think I need to change my pattern some. Maybe it means reading from a different translation of the Bible. Maybe it means slowing down my journey through God's word, picking apart phrases, exploring more of the Hebrew/Greek and doing other research. On the other hand, maybe it means less of that, and more of simply reading the Bible for awhile.
I'm the type of person that can get really excited doing that kind of deep, involved study. (Go figure, since I hated studying in college.) And God uses it in a major way in my life and personal ministry. Spirit Blade Productions is partially an avenue for me to share and teach what I've learned through studying. But I want to be careful that I'm not just getting to know about God. I want to get to know God himself. Sometimes, deeply technical study results in some very personal encounters with God for me. Other times, it's just cool to be learning, but doesn't build on my relationship with God. So including purposeful prayer and sometimes worship at my piano are what I need to keep things personal with God.
Anyway, I thought I'd share a little of my personal journey with all of you today. Today I'm at a crossroads and determining what my next steps will be. Maybe you're going through something similar. If not, chances are high that you have before and will again. These little lulls are never fun, but when I respond to them the way I believe God wants me to, they usually lead to something better than I had before. Even in his silence, God is on the move.